Friday, September 26, 2008
After Jurassic years, our CPU has finally been fixed! I missed everything I do online; blogging, Friendster, Multiply, Teentalk... Gahd. Kamusta naman kayo? ^^I am currently in a horrible mood. 37 days to go before my 18th birthday but instead of expecting something extravagant or exciting, for me, there's nothing.
See, my Mom promised me a lavish debut party but the damn Manila City Hall delayed the release of my Mom's check that left me no choice but to cancel it and perahin ko na lang. I understood the cancellation of my debut, but a while ago, my Mom told me to get just only 10k for my birthday.
Manlibre na lang daw ako ng classmates ko? She remembered my friends but did she even ask what I wanted for my birthday? NO. Pinaasa na nga ako na magdedebut ako, pati ba naman sa perang to pinaasa pa ko. I'm not being materialistic or anything but, come on. Admit it, some of you girls want to have your 18th as happy and memorable as possible. Kahit hindi na nga ako mag-debut, basta matupad man lang yung mga gusto kong makuha for my birthday.
I know that life for my Mom in the States is still hard. I understand that she needed time to adjust and become stable. I completely understand her situation but I hope that she considered my feelings as well. As they say, minsan lang tayo mag-e-18. It's once in a lifetime, might as well na sulitin na natin.
For the past few weeks I've been praying to God na sana, kung hindi man matuloy yung debut ko eh Siya na bahala. I trust the Lord that He would provide me the 18th birthday celebration that I deserve. I know that God would not let me down. Things might be going off-course as of this moment but I know that God's wisdom would never fail me. Help me, Lord. :(