Saturday, September 27, 2008
Never in my life have I been so busy until I took up Mass Communications. My leisure time has been minimized to the size of a pore in my face and my eyebags are almost reaching my cheeks. It would be much better if I lost some weight too, but unfortunately, I didn't.School is exhausting. We have plenty of stuff to do. Although those stuff are of my interests and within my capabilities, I still cannot change and ignore the fact that I am human no matter how weird I can be and I get tired. I am far from being a Superwoman.
I am piled with speeches, film, chamber theater, and articles that are expected in a week or two.
What perfect timing it is for my not-so-typical lethargic side to appear all of a sudden. How great. Ugh, sarcasm is killing me.
I can't wait for semestral break! I want to reward myself with lots of rest after dealing with my grueling school works. And how I hope that 2nd semester would be a much lighter one; I can't afford to deal with so many things anymore. I'll burst in exhaustion!
Friday, September 26, 2008
After Jurassic years, our CPU has finally been fixed! I missed everything I do online; blogging, Friendster, Multiply, Teentalk... Gahd. Kamusta naman kayo? ^^I am currently in a horrible mood. 37 days to go before my 18th birthday but instead of expecting something extravagant or exciting, for me, there's nothing.
See, my Mom promised me a lavish debut party but the damn Manila City Hall delayed the release of my Mom's check that left me no choice but to cancel it and perahin ko na lang. I understood the cancellation of my debut, but a while ago, my Mom told me to get just only 10k for my birthday.
Manlibre na lang daw ako ng classmates ko? She remembered my friends but did she even ask what I wanted for my birthday? NO. Pinaasa na nga ako na magdedebut ako, pati ba naman sa perang to pinaasa pa ko. I'm not being materialistic or anything but, come on. Admit it, some of you girls want to have your 18th as happy and memorable as possible. Kahit hindi na nga ako mag-debut, basta matupad man lang yung mga gusto kong makuha for my birthday.
I know that life for my Mom in the States is still hard. I understand that she needed time to adjust and become stable. I completely understand her situation but I hope that she considered my feelings as well. As they say, minsan lang tayo mag-e-18. It's once in a lifetime, might as well na sulitin na natin.
For the past few weeks I've been praying to God na sana, kung hindi man matuloy yung debut ko eh Siya na bahala. I trust the Lord that He would provide me the 18th birthday celebration that I deserve. I know that God would not let me down. Things might be going off-course as of this moment but I know that God's wisdom would never fail me. Help me, Lord. :(
Thursday, September 4, 2008
"Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
In our secretest heart it's our favorite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too"
- Ever ever after, Carrie Underwood
No matter how we try to force ourselves into believing that in reality, happy endings are nonexistent, we have to admit that deep down in our hearts, we are hoping, expecting, and praying for our own little happy ever afters.
My relationship with my boyfriend, Roummel was nowhere near perfect. We have these petty fights and major fights, the famous tampuhan and the cold shoulder treatment. We both commit mistakes, be it little or big. We lose our tempers to the extent that we curse each other. But these things helped us hold on stronger.
I AM ABSOLUTELY BLESSED to have Roummel as my boyfriend. He is the very person I dreamed of spending the rest of my life with. I know it's a tad too early to tell but if given the chance, I am definitely willing to share the remainders of my life with him.
This blog entry came out late but what the hey, the chronemics doesn't hinder me from shouting to the whole virtual community how much I love my boyfriend. He is, by far, the greatest and most wonderful gift that I have ever received from God, and I am never letting go.
I have no idea what I've done to deserve such blessing. I never expected anything spectacular like this would happen, but I'm glad it did. The past 10months was a blast, and I am so looking forward for more. Be it hurdling obstacles or not, I know that he would always be with me. And we will overcome everything together. :)