Wednesday, December 24, 2008
So, it's been, what? Almost a month since I updated my blog. And it's almost dead. Nobody visits here anymore (sob)!Forgive me for slacking off (again). It's just that I have been pretty busy lately, it almost made me forget that I own a Blogger site. Haha. Anyway, I miss posting whatnots here. Not writing has been pushing me to insanity.
I was browsing my cousin's Friendster account when I realized that she has already gone to the US with her family without having a chance to see or even speak with each other before they took off. I know it was partly my fault because she has been inviting me to go out since forever but like I said, life's been pretty hectic that time that I swore off going out and chilling.
As I was looking at her photos with her friends, I can't help but reminisce those times when we're thisclose to each other. When we were kids, it had always been us; playmates, partners in crime, chatmate, and best friends. Though we occassionally see each other, we grew up together. Distance did not stop us from communicating and catching up. We shared secrets, stories, tears, laughter, sorrow, and joy. I have always treated her just like my own sister, and always looked forward to the next day that we'll be seeing each other.
But as time flew, we slowly drifted apart for no apparent reason. I have the idea that change is to blame but it's not really the culprit since it is the only thing that's constant in this world. I think we didn't even realize it, it just...happened. I've never really given this much thought until today. So many moments were wasted, as well as time.
It made me sad when I think of how it used to be just us. The previous years were nothing as compared to the more previous years we shared together. It's very sad. And I miss her. I miss everything about her and what we used to do together but I can't really do anything because we have changed. Change is a powerful thing; it transforms anything or anyone it can without our permission. And when we realize what change has brought us, it leaves us no choice but to just accept it and live with it.