Monday, October 27, 2008
Loose powder, hair polish, eyelash curler, mascara, lip&cheek stain, and lip gloss -- these beauty products are my favorite essentials. The wonders it did to my face has lifted up my self-esteem and self-confidence. These are only makeup tools, you might say. But these played quite a remarkable role in my life.
When a particular ex-boyfriend replaced me for someone very beautiful, I was devastated. I could only think about what she has that I don't have. I started comparing myself to her until it came to a point where I was almost imitating her.
Her face was always made up. She has blush on, lipstick, and curled eyelashes with mascara. While me, on the other hand, relies only on loose powder. I wasn't really a fan of wearing makeup. Don't get me wrong, though; I think makeup is one of the most significant inventions of science. But for me, I believe that simplicity is beauty. And I used to believe that my ex loved that kind of simplicity that I have.
In order to show my ex that I could be as beautiful as her, I started buying makeup to (hopefully) match her pretty face. Since then, I never leave the house without a touch of mascara, eyelash curler, lip&cheek stain, and lip gloss.
Well, I was over him for over a year now. But it was only then that a realization struck me:
Why am I still wearing makeup when there isn't a competition anymore?
I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me no matter how I look. He appreciates me with or without makeup, and with or without vanity. My friends and my family like me better without makeup, and still the same as when I put those products on my face. After that enlightenment, I limited my use of makeup.
It's really embarrassing to think how stupid I have been to resort to such a shallow routine just to prove an unworthy person that I am just the same as the replacement when deep down inside, I know that I am a much better person than her. I wear appropriate clothes, I don't have vices, I have respect to my own self, and my intelligence and wit is tons distant from her. I realized that I don't need to change for someone who can't appreciate what I have because there is a person out there who will wholeheartedly accept me and my flaws.
I still wear makeup, but only when it's really essential. For now, I am more than happy with my loose powder and lip gloss. It's just enough to enhance the unique beauty that God has given me. :)
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